Month: October 2011

anxiety, fibromyalgiaLeave a comment

Removing the Poison Factories

everfaith

I look like an old woman moving around these days.  My pain has become excruciating to the point where I can’t even stand up straight.  But in a strange way, this pain is actually motivating me to follow through with my plans. I found out today that my blood clotting issues are not going to be a problem.  I will be able to take hormone replacement therapy.  As a precaution, I’ll be given blood thinning injections for five days post-op. Injections don’t bother me.  Just don’t give me a horse pill to swallow! I love how God brings people in … Continue reading Removing the Poison Factories

anxiety, fibromyalgia1 Comment

Trying to Trust

everfaith

Ow. The exam at the gastroenterologist’s office today hurt, and I’m not talking about my pocketbook because I’ve met my deductible for insurance.  The pain I experienced as he dug around my belly is indescribable.  My entire abdomen is sore and tender, from the bottom all the way to the top.  When he poked at my diaphragm, you’d have thought he cut right through the skin, the pain was so intense. I broke out in a sweat and had a panic attack right there on the table.  I could not WAIT to get out of that place.  Me going to … Continue reading Trying to Trust

anxiety, fibromyalgia5 Comments

Searching for Courage

everfaith

I want to give up.  I want to cancel all doctor appointments and my surgery.  This burden is too big for me to carry.  I’ve given it to the Lord but it doesn’t yet FEEL like He has it.  I believe He has everything under control, so why do I FEEL so anxious anyway? The gastroenterologist wants me to get an upper GI sonogram.  This test is easy and noninvasive.  But he also wants to do an endoscopy — you know that procedure where the doctor knocks you out and then sticks a ginormous camera down your throat?  I’ve been … Continue reading Searching for Courage

anxiety, fibromyalgiaLeave a comment

It’s Complicated

everfaith

Why does everything have to be so complicated?  The gastroenterologist has an appointment for me before my surgery…but it’s just ONE day before the surgery.  So I won’t be surprised if my 9 day countdown turns into another 29 day countdown.  Sigh. But above all I am angry at the way the woman at the front desk treated me when I called.  She had some serious attitude. (insert snippy tone of voice here) You mean you did not tell Dr. Reisler that you already had CT scans done?  Why didn’t he know that? Well, duh.  The scans were ordered by … Continue reading It’s Complicated

anxiety, comfort, fibromyalgia1 Comment

High Maintenance Patient

everfaith

I’ve entered the traditional countdown…my surgery is ten days away. Unless it is postponed, that is. Dr. Reisler called me on Friday to discuss some concerns he has about some of my symptoms, particularly the pain I experience on my diaphragm.  He has advised me to Schedule an appointment ASAP with a gastroenterologist to get an opinion on whether my cyclic pain might be related to endometriosis on my diaphragm or bowel and request a CT scan of my upper abdomen prior to surgery (pushing the surgery back, if I can’t get in to the gastroenterologist next week). Meet with … Continue reading High Maintenance Patient