My thoughts are in a jumble tonight.
I’ve been reading a book about the Holy Spirit. Much of what I am reading I agree with…but then I googled the author of the book and found that many “apologetics” consider him a heretic.
Why? Because he said that in the Scriptures, Jesus never preached the Bible. Jesus preached the Kingdom of God.
The apologetic writer asserts that it is impossible to separate the two and that when Jesus was preaching about the Kingdom of God, since the Word is God (John 1), he was also preaching the Word.
It makes me feel like I am in over my head!
I am no Bible scholar. I am a Christian woman who seeks after the heart of God. I want passion in my worship and in my life. I want to be all about pointing others towards God’s glory.
But I don’t want to accidentally lay hold of and believe a false teaching, though, being deceived by the kernel of truth in it.
How I wish I had the training to discern such things logically!
All I know tonight is that I do not want to adhere to a doctrine that limits the power of God in any way, shape or form. God is God. He is just as able to heal, to encourage, to go before and to lift up as He was in the days in which the New Testament (and OT) were penned. To say that somehow he allowed miracles to die away is actually adding something false to scripture.
No one doctrine is 100% correct…because we are people. We aren’t God. We fail in our attempts to put the God of creation in a context we can understand.
At any rate, I put the book down because I need to read for myself and investigate spiritual gifts.
I must learn to rest and know that God knows my heart and my motivations. He knows that I want to be in love with Jesus yet don’t really know the way. I love him; he knows that. But I know some people who are IN love with him. Is there a difference? I think there is, in terms of passion and drive. The people who put the Lord first in everything they do, who think about him, who talk to him in prayer conversationally throughout the day, who regularly “feed” on His word and who are passionate about loving the people around them…those are the ones who are IN love with Jesus. I’m still kicking myself for forgetting to say the blessing tonight at dinner. I am not in that league. I still sin and need His forgiveness every single day.
He has already brought me peace tonight as I write these words: God does not change. People do.
I can rest on that truth.