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God-colored glasses

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Today’s blog is a confession.  I have been battling writer’s block.  Carpal tunnel is making my writing jaunts fewer and far between, but I compose blogs in my head all day long!  I read something in the newspaper….or hear something in a sermon….or read something in the Bible…or observe something beautiful and want to share it.  But then when I sit down to write, all words stop.  I think this has a lot to do with the state of my relationship with my God.  You see, I am walking in the desert place.  I have unresolved health issues and am … Continue reading God-colored glasses

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Battling the CT machine

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I went in today for a CT Scan.  For most people, such a test would be no big deal.  Just drink the stuff they give you, present your arm for the IV, and wham bam get the scans done and leave. I wish with all my strength that I could have been such a person. Instead, I battled Fear.  I went in unprepared spiritually for such a battle.  Oh, I’d read my scriptures this morning, but that old Anxiety monster reared its ugly head.  Seven hours later, I’m still feeling the effects of the panic attack. The first battle was … Continue reading Battling the CT machine

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Worried About My Worries

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We are a people of words.  Words permeate everything we do — even our thoughts are framed in words.  Because we are created in God’s image, and because he chose to give us a written guide beginning with the 10 Commandments, I think words matter to God.  In fact, I know words matter to him.  Jesus said, in Luke 6, The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his … Continue reading Worried About My Worries

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Not always EverFaith

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With a title like EverFaith, one might get the impression that I am faithful always.  But this is an electronic journal, of sorts, and I wouldn’t be honest if I only posted those th0ughts which were faithful and righteous.  That would be a lie — because I am not always faithful, and I am certainly not always righteous. I’m up against a brick wall these days.  I am being pressed and am under some sort of spiritual attack, if my feelings are any indicator of such things. Several months ago, I felt a call to become a director of a … Continue reading Not always EverFaith

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The guard of my heart

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This is a photo of my hand during a Raynaud’s attack. The capillaries collapse and restrict blood flow. Some nerves in that middle finger have been damaged from blood loss, but now that I know what this is, I can take precautions in cold or chilly weather. Since that time, my whole hands have become white like that one finger. It is incredibly painful and is next to impossible to use my hands for anything; I lose my grip on the car keys and drop them. I have trouble curling my fingers around the steering wheel. Now that I drive … Continue reading The guard of my heart