In a Moment

One moment I was on the phone with my husband who had called to say he would pick our daughter up from her gymnastics class… One moment I was considering how much house I could clean in the few minutes I had until they got home from gym class… …when suddenly, in two seconds, everything changed. My daughter fell off the balance beam at the gym.  She told me later that she screamed as soon as she hit the floor and that she just knew her arm was broken.  What we didn’t know at the time is that not one … Continue reading In a Moment

Figs, faith, and songs

One of my dad’s favorite snacks are Fig Newtons. I never understood his love of them; I prefer the Newtons that are filled with apples or some other fruit. I never did “get” the taste of figs. Then again, I didn’t grow up in the Middle East. Jesus apparently liked figs, just like my dad. There is one story about a fig tree that has always fascinated me because I never quite understood it. I know there’s a point to it somewhere, but so far it’s one of those elusive – maybe – God – will – tell – me … Continue reading Figs, faith, and songs

Wrestling

There is a distinct connection between the heart and the body. No, not the mechanical connection between the muscle that pumps life giving blood to the rest of the body, although that is a definite. Our bodies house our souls while we are on earth. And when something goes awry with the soul, the body follows. At this moment I do not have a cold. But my body feels sick. I am not physically sick — just got a clean bill of health in my annual physical yesterday — yet I have that “about to get a cold” achy feeling … Continue reading Wrestling

I’m wearing black today…

As sweet as my Dalmatian was, no one told me before we got  him that Dals shed.  A lot.  I’m sure we’ll be finding hair in obscure places two years from now.  I haven’t emptied his water bowl yet because he drank from it on Saturday before we said goodbye, and there are little Shiner hairs floating on the surface.  Soon I’ll take care of it.  But not today. My husband and my daughter are doing really well.  Both of them are dwelling on the fact that he’s no longer suffering.  I guess I am the one who is walking … Continue reading I’m wearing black today…

Moments

Well, it’s Monday morning, and I’m sitting here trying to figure out how to live normally without my best friend.  I can barely stand to sit at the computer because he used to curl up at my feet.  I can barely stand to walk into our bathroom because that’s where he slept at night, and, at the end, where we had to confine him.  I can barely stand to cook…or put dirty dishes in the dishwasher…or watch a movie with my family…or, let’s get real — I can barely stand to breathe sometimes. Having said all that, I am okay.   … Continue reading Moments