Father (still) Knows Best

There was a moment (or maybe a few) when I was pregnant with my daughter that I hoped I’d have twins.  I had one of those strange “feelings” that one child was all I would ever have.  It was more than one of those “You did this to me!” moments directed towards my husband.  Rather, it was an internal acknowledgment that somehow, like Melanie in Gone with Wind, I was not built for carrying and birthing babies. Then my baby was born a preemie, all 5 pounds of her, and I realized that my body WAS built for birthing babies. … Continue reading Father (still) Knows Best

Looking Back, Full Steam Ahead

Looking back, I proclaim 2011 to have been the Year of the Roller Coaster.  There were so many twists and turns through my life journey that it’s difficult to even remember all of them.  Truthfully, the year was filled with much angst, pain, panic attacks, and poor health — but also with love, life, and peace that defies human understanding.  I still do not know how I mustered the courage to power through some of the tasks set before me.  If someone had told me last January that by the end of the year I would have successfully had a … Continue reading Looking Back, Full Steam Ahead

Finding some down time

I caught the end of one of my favorite movies today as I folded the gazillion loads of clean clothes piled up on my sofa: Ever After.  This classic Cinderella story set in medieval France does not just capture my imagination…it makes me want to re-write the plot, particularly the scene where the prince learned that his “Countess” was actually a servant girl.  I need more information here, and so did the prince!  If Danielle is the daughter of a Countess, she has royal blood, does she not?  So why was her stepmother allowed to force her into servitude?  These … Continue reading Finding some down time

Confined to the Couch

This convalescence has to come to end soon before I either go crazy or drive my family nuts. I’ve made huge strides in my healing!  I just have a long way to go.  When I signed up for this surgery, my mind was worried about the surgery itself and the immediate aftermath rather than on my ability to handle being a lounge lizard for such a long period of time. The Bright Side (Thank you, God!!) I’ve officially passed the time of the month where I would have had a series of very painful days.  Slowly the reality is dawning … Continue reading Confined to the Couch

A Birth Day

Thirteen years ago, my belly resembled a basketball as I shivered and shook my way through the evening at a hospital in Tennessee.  I didn’t know any of the doctors or the nurses.  In fact, this was the first time I’d ever laid eyes on the maternity floor at this hospital despite the fact that I was almost eight months pregnant.  The only person I knew was my husband, who squeezed my hand on the way to the hospital as he took a wrong turn.  I was in premature labor, and four days previously we had  moved across the country … Continue reading A Birth Day