I wish I could just post all of those four chapters on this blog. Go read them, and take comfort from their prophetic words. It is amazing to see the prophesies about Jesus…and to read the ones about what is to come for us one day.
I got good news from the oncologist today! I found out that my IgM numbers, although high, are not monoclonal. Apparently, if I had macroglobulinemia, my body would be producing only one type of IgM in high numbers. The doctor has followed me for a year now, and my numbers continue to be high…I am, he said, somewhat of a mystery! There is an underlying autoimmune problem in my body.
I feels as if I have just taken out a mismatched piece of the jigsaw puzzle that is me. Thank you, Lord, that lymphoma is not a piece of the puzzle. And I thank you, Lord, that even though I am a mystery to the doctor…I am NOT a mystery to you. You are the one who created me…you have all knowledge and all power and all wisdom and all goodness embodied in your very being. I found myself agreeing with Isaiah as I read:
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
I can rest tonight knowing that my Heavenly Father knows…and He heals! Now I am praying that He will open doors and lead me to a rheumatologist who can solve the puzzle that is me…or, better yet, that He will completely remove whatever it is in me that is causing my body to be allergic to itself! (Talk about being uncomfortable in your own skin!)
I pray the Lord’s glory will somehow be revealed through this journey of mine…and I thank Him for giving me rest and strength, a supportive family, and fabulous friends who will walk with me and help me face the road ahead.