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Finding some down time

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I caught the end of one of my favorite movies today as I folded the gazillion loads of clean clothes piled up on my sofa: Ever After.  This classic Cinderella story set in medieval France does not just capture my imagination…it makes me want to re-write the plot, particularly the scene where the prince learned that his “Countess” was actually a servant girl.  I need more information here, and so did the prince!  If Danielle is the daughter of a Countess, she has royal blood, does she not?  So why was her stepmother allowed to force her into servitude?  These … Continue reading Finding some down time

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Running with camels

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Seven weeks post-op, and I am *almost* normal!  Well, normal as defined by me, at least.  As defined by my doctor, though…not so much. Since I was having nonstop anxiety and despair about the lurking organism H Pylori turning my stomach into a witch’s acidic brew (not a scientific description), I decided to become a camel for awhile.  If I take my proton-pump inhibitor, I don’t have pain.  So why worry about taking a double dose of toxic medicines to kill the organism?  Can’t we just coexist peacefully? Unfortunately, my doctor doesn’t share my opinion.  Something about nutrition, absorbing enough … Continue reading Running with camels

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Glad to be on the winning team

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Thankfully I did not grow another eyeball, lose any appendages, or experience sudden death today after taking the first dose of that dreaded antibiotic.  Unfortunately, I have experienced enough signs and symptoms that I know I am reacting and am not just panicking: -hearing changes.  I haven’t exactly lost my hearing, but this evening suddenly everything got muffled.  I’m hearing a strange phantom ringing sound in my right ear that drives me crazy if I don’t distract myself with something else…like writing.  Except I just wrote about it and now am thinking about it again! -vision changes.  I made my … Continue reading Glad to be on the winning team

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Oh, that I had wings like a dove!

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Six weeks out from my hysterectomy, and I have some real benefits!  The hysterectomy solved some major health problems.  Since my surgery, I no longer have hormonal headaches, backaches, pelvic pain, shoulder pain, leg pain, or buttocks pain.  Whoo-hoo!  So why am I not celebrating?  Because the H Pylori infection has me all tied up in knots. Today I went one step closer to treatment by getting a shot of penicillin.  I’ll have to go next week to get another one.  But I’m supposed to take an additional antibiotic, and that is where I am having trouble.  You’d think that … Continue reading Oh, that I had wings like a dove!

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Stuck in a Shell

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Some people are risk takers.  Other people plow through life without thought to the risks and consequences of their actions.  Then there are people like me who are risk-averse, to the highest degree. I avoid risk at all costs.  My father’s admonition to “think before you act” helped shaped me into the person I am today.  But in true perfectionistic form, I take it way past the point of logic and way past what he intended me to learn.  Today I find myself in a position where I am endangering my health and my relationship with the Lord because my … Continue reading Stuck in a Shell