Matthew 19; Mark 10
51“What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked him.
The blind man said, “Rabbi, I want to see.”
52“Go,” said Jesus, “your faith has healed you.” Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus along the road.
If Jesus asked me what I wanted him to do for me (as if I deserve anything from Him!), what would I ask for? What would YOU ask for?
Freedom from anxiety. That is high on my list.
Freedom from pain. That is another request that I would ask.
Tomorrow I will do what is usually the unthinkable, for me, when I board an airplane. I am trying to push the anxiety about this trip to the back of my mind. I don’t WANT to feel anxious. I am praying for the Lord to encase us in a bubble, to give us a smooth flight, and to be so completely IN me that I experience what it is like to have an absence of fear.
In context of what I learned last night — that the Kingdom of God is WITHIN me, this may yet be possible in my lifetime!
This will be the first time since I was first married — you know, back before cell phones and google and running water — that I have left my family and gone away for a week. Usually I at least have my daughter with me, or I take a trip with my sweet husband. But this time, it will just be me, the doctor’s office, the hotel, the Lord…and the ocean breeze. I’m praying that the Lord will give Dr. Rhodes wisdom and understanding to heal the physical part of my pain…and I’m praying the Lord Jesus will grant me my wish: to be free of fear/anxiety, and to be free of pain. That’s my new Christmas list.