Category: anxiety

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Victory!

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Yesterday, God put a sword in my hand.  He led me into battle against the mightiest foe I could ever face…myself. The dreaded CT scan was the battleground.  His Word was the sword.  And the people He placed in my path strengthened my faith, which had the effect of shoring up my shield. After the horrible CT Scan experience a couple months ago, this repeat scan was hanging over my head like a brick just waiting to fall.  I kept pushing thoughts of it out of the way, but still it hovered, ready to infect my thoughts with dread in … Continue reading Victory!

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The Truth About Trust

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This is no ordinary holiday season for my family.  There are painful realities every which way we turn.  I am praying myself up for a follow-up CT scan on Monday.  This time I will not go it alone.  My husband is taking me.  Most of all, I pray for peaceful thoughts.  I don’t want to obsess about the contrast dye that will be injected into my vein.  I don’t want to obsess and wonder whether or not my lymph nodes are enlarged and, if so, what that may entail.  I just want to hold onto Jesus and my family this … Continue reading The Truth About Trust

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Singing with my mouth…but not with my soul

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My fingers have been itching to write over the past couple of weeks, but carving out time to do so is just not happening on a regular basis. It’s cold today here, at least by North Texas standards.  My spine hurts, my fingers hurt, my knees hurt, and my hips hurt.  I don’t know if there is a joint in my body that is not aching today.  Maybe the one in my little toe… But I digress.  This cold, dreary weather is an accurate reflection of the inside of me at the moment.  My spiritual temperature is lukewarm.  I feel … Continue reading Singing with my mouth…but not with my soul

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The Windy City, Tall Buildings, and Conquered Fear

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We had a nice long weekend in downtown Chicago.  The people were very friendly, and despite the chilly weather and the rain, we managed to do some sightseeing.  I really enjoyed meeting many of my husband’s relatives.  A wedding is a great reason to celebrate! Another reason I had for celebrating is that I did not have any chest pain the whole trip.  Not on the plane, not during social situations (which is when it usually hits me), and not during any of the many meals we ate.  I praise God for that because the previous week I had several … Continue reading The Windy City, Tall Buildings, and Conquered Fear

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Looking out for rainbows

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I know those God-colored glasses are around here somewhere… I had a call today from the oncology nurse.  The CT scan showed “borderline enlarged” supraclavical lymph nodes.  The doctor wants me to have a repeat chest CT scan in 3 months to see if there has been any change in their sizes. I very politely and sweetly spoke with the nurse, but the moment I hung up the phone, I fell apart.  I cried buckets of tears…called my husband.  Called my mother-in-law.  Cried some more. Not another CT scan!  I lost four pounds in one day the last time I … Continue reading Looking out for rainbows