Today is my last “normal” day.  Tomorrow I have to stick to a clear liquid diet.  Oh joy.  I can’t wait.  Especially since my aching stomach just LOVES being empty with a bunch of liquid on it.

I have to admit, I’m feeling my peace crumble just a bit.  This would be a really nice time for Jesus to come back!  My phobia of nausea is still niggling in my mind, especially now that I learned I have to stick to clear fluids and 3 Miralax treatments.  I wish I were a nurse practitioner so I could prescribe myself a Zofran or Phenergan shot just to keep my stomach settled.  But no such luck.  I am NOT looking forward to tomorrow.  Just saying.

On the bright side, I don’t have to drink the prescription grade stuff that tastes horrid, and I get to spread the dosage out from tonight (one dose) through tomorrow (two doses, spread out throughout the day).  I hope to hide the Miralax in my tea so I won’t be able to taste it.  Earl Gray + Miralax + Jello.  Yum.  I’ll try to keep my mind busy in a book or TV series.  Anybody have any TV series recommendations?

There’s another bright side to this story.  I found out that my abdominal ultrasound on Friday was normal.  There was no evidence of gallstones or disease in my stomach, pancreas, gallbladder, liver, and kidneys.  That sigh of relief you are hearing is me feeling grateful that my inmost parts are okay.  So where’s all the inflammation coming from, hmmm?  My bet is on endometriosis.

In my other life, I would be a medical researcher, and endometriosis is one of the things I would like to research. I want to learn why it happens.  I want to know if certain genes are in play or if environmental issues have led to the disease.  There is a link between endometriosis, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and other autoimmune diseases.  But no one really understands why.  All they can do for me is take out my innards.  Maybe one day a medical researcher will stumble upon the cause, or set of causes, so it can be prevented and treated medically rather than surgically.  I hold on to this hope for my daughter!

I went to the store today and bought a couple of nightgowns and a robe that I hope will be comfortable in the hospital and for my recovery at home.  One of my favorites is a pink nighty with white lace trim.  I’m such a girlie girl!  I also received some items that I ordered from the HysterSisters website: a “tummy pillow” and an abdominal band that has pockets for placing cool gel packs inside.  Tomorrow I will raid the Amazon Kindle store for free books and will make a list of movies that I’d like to see.  I already know some of them:

• Pirates of the Caribbean (all of them.  I’ve only seen the first)
• Letters to Juliet
• Bridesmaids
• Princess Bride (have to watch this one at least once every other day. :o)
• Soul Surfer
• Pride and Prejudice

That’s a good start, I think!  I love being able to order movies on Demand and free books on the Kindle because then I won’t forget to return them and rack up three-digit fines.  Not that I’ve done that before. (Ahem).

Enough of the bright side for a moment.  The reality is that I truly and deeply need prayer.  For tonight, tomorrow, and Wednesday morning, I need Jesus’ peace to fill me so completely that my phobia has no room to pop out. Those of you following my story help me through your prayers.  I can FEEL them.  Keep them coming!