Tag: hysterectomy

anxiety, comfort, fibromyalgia2 Comments

Just Believe

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I’m intrigued with the way God uses friends to completely turn my perspective upside down. Yesterday I was an emotional and physical wreck, worried about whether the new knowledge that I have an additional blood clotting antibody in my blood is a door that God put up to prevent me from my current path towards surgery. Last night, my friend and neighbor who has been following this blog surprised me with a big plate of cookies, a promise to continue praying for me, tears, and a promise to set up a website to help friends sign up to bring meals … Continue reading Just Believe

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When is a door a door?

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I went to my pre-op appointment this morning hoping to feel a sense of closure about saying goodbye to my girl innards.  I’d prayed the Gideon prayer and asked God that if surgery was NOT the path he wants me to take, that he would set up doors. So when is a door a door? I found out today that I have not one but two markers, or antibodies, in my blood that make me susceptible to developing blood clots.  I knew about one of those markers — anticardiolipin antibodies.  Now I have learned that  I also have an elevated … Continue reading When is a door a door?

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Fighting like Gideon

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This enormous fella has staked out a place in the back yard in between our palm and magnolia trees.  I did not get out the broom because it’s obvious he’s a bit long in the tooth and is therefore a survivor since anything that lived though this past summer has to have a lot of gumption!  (Not to mention I’m also a wimp.  If I try to smack him I might miss, and then he might decide to smack me.  Or eat me.  He’s as big as my hand!)  As long as he (or she) stays outside and away from … Continue reading Fighting like Gideon

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Frigid Feet

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Just a couple days ago I boasted that I felt a sense of RESOLVE about having surgery in 18 short days. Let it be proclaimed from the rooftops that the resolve has slithered to the floor and now lies puddled at my frigid feet.  Oh my goodness, I think the anxiety about the surgery is going to be worse than the surgery itself! I visited the HysterSisters website again today and really wish I had not done that.  Maybe it would be better for me to be ignorant of all the things that may happen post-op.  Perhaps I don’t need … Continue reading Frigid Feet

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Sledgehammer

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Sledgehammer…or flyswatter.  That is the question for me today. I took an enormous leap this morning and went ahead and pre-registered with the hospital for my surgery.  And although I am mostly resolved about the way forward, I wonder sometimes if I am not dealing with my medical issues with a sledgehammer rather than a flyswatter.  Sledgehammer: hysterectomy.  Flyswatter: diagnostic scope and ablation and hormones. Yet when I consider that over the past month, I’ve had maybe three days of feeling decent and yucky pain the rest of the time…when I consider that my doctor told me I am now … Continue reading Sledgehammer